Anu & Veer were having their dinner in silence like the many more dinners they have had since marriage. Still there was something strange today, the silence was eerie. Today the TV was also not blaring with Arnab Goswami shouting 'the nation wants to know' nor was the phone beeping with the usual WhatsApp messages.
Anu couldn't stop herself and broke into tears, as she walked away Veer was still at the table looking at the empty plates. In her bedroom looking at the big wall size wedding photograph, she just wanted to cry out louder. She felt hollow, a strange emptiness had hit her. She remembered the day Veer had come to her place with his family to meet her for the first time. She knew she liked him there itself and after a few days all were busy with the wedding shenanigans. She was happy, very happy. The picture on the wall recited the gala affair again & again. It has been eight months now and all has changed.
Nothing had changed actually, only today Anu realized that things would never be the way she wanted. She wanted to call Ma, tell her that what she told her was not true, things did not change with marriage. The day she walked into the house as a new bride, she wanted to make it her world. But it never belonged to her. She forgot that a marriage is between two people and she couldn't do anything alone. She wanted to do it all be herself, her fault. She was busy decorating the world which was falling apart, rather was never there, a mirage which she thought to be hers, her fault.
She remembered her first night with her life partner, she had heard friends how special it was for them and all they did was go to sleep. She couldn't tell this to anyone because Ma told things in the bedroom should remain there. It was a long day and he could have been tired, but still something felt wrong. Today she knew everything was wrong. The day she held his hand in New York, he just walked away. She was angry, humiliated, upset and the old school taught her that silence was more powerful than words but everyone was wrong. She wanted to shout to everyone that we all were wrong, things weren't solved by keeping quiet. She was told that the man would be hers if she would give him love, but nobody told her, why he wouldn't make love to her. She didn't know what was her fault and what she could do.
After these longest eight months of her life she knew nothing would change. If her flight to Singapore wouldn't have been cancelled she would have never known that Akash was the reason. She had seen Akash in the place she should have been. The bedroom she thought was hers was Veer & Akash's love abode. Veer's eyes had the glow she had been searching all these days for herself. She just asked "Why?" and Veer kept quiet.
She knew what she had to do now and the hollow was gone. She didn't care what Ma would say and what tauaji & chachaji would think. She wanted to live her life on her terms. There was no place for Veer in her life. The picture with both of them smiling still covered the wall but couldn't fill the emptiness of the house.
Anu couldn't stop herself and broke into tears, as she walked away Veer was still at the table looking at the empty plates. In her bedroom looking at the big wall size wedding photograph, she just wanted to cry out louder. She felt hollow, a strange emptiness had hit her. She remembered the day Veer had come to her place with his family to meet her for the first time. She knew she liked him there itself and after a few days all were busy with the wedding shenanigans. She was happy, very happy. The picture on the wall recited the gala affair again & again. It has been eight months now and all has changed.
Nothing had changed actually, only today Anu realized that things would never be the way she wanted. She wanted to call Ma, tell her that what she told her was not true, things did not change with marriage. The day she walked into the house as a new bride, she wanted to make it her world. But it never belonged to her. She forgot that a marriage is between two people and she couldn't do anything alone. She wanted to do it all be herself, her fault. She was busy decorating the world which was falling apart, rather was never there, a mirage which she thought to be hers, her fault.
She remembered her first night with her life partner, she had heard friends how special it was for them and all they did was go to sleep. She couldn't tell this to anyone because Ma told things in the bedroom should remain there. It was a long day and he could have been tired, but still something felt wrong. Today she knew everything was wrong. The day she held his hand in New York, he just walked away. She was angry, humiliated, upset and the old school taught her that silence was more powerful than words but everyone was wrong. She wanted to shout to everyone that we all were wrong, things weren't solved by keeping quiet. She was told that the man would be hers if she would give him love, but nobody told her, why he wouldn't make love to her. She didn't know what was her fault and what she could do.
After these longest eight months of her life she knew nothing would change. If her flight to Singapore wouldn't have been cancelled she would have never known that Akash was the reason. She had seen Akash in the place she should have been. The bedroom she thought was hers was Veer & Akash's love abode. Veer's eyes had the glow she had been searching all these days for herself. She just asked "Why?" and Veer kept quiet.
She knew what she had to do now and the hollow was gone. She didn't care what Ma would say and what tauaji & chachaji would think. She wanted to live her life on her terms. There was no place for Veer in her life. The picture with both of them smiling still covered the wall but couldn't fill the emptiness of the house.
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