There are times when your heart beats fast, sometimes it feels good and the other times it feels scary. That day it happened again and she did not know whether it was good or bad. Was she scared or was it just anxiety hitting her like it hits everyone on their D-day. She tried to pace down her thinking, smiled at the guests, clicked pictures with people around and did all that she was expected to do. She was getting married and then all would have changed- a new house, new people actually everything new. Her mom, aunts & friends all said everyone felt like she did that day, but she didn't feel good.
She had met him two months back and their marriage was fixed. She was happy that she wouldn't have had to go through those profiles with baseless information about a person. She was happy that all the people who were more concerned about her marriage than their own kids' life will have to find a new scapegoat. Yes, she was happy about these reasons. The day had arrived and she was getting married to this man and all the happiness tend to fade away. Things did take place as planned with perfection, the wedding was the talk of the town. What mattered was the wedding to all and not the marriage, and she somehow felt that all had fallen apart. She ignored it all & went ahead to start her new life.
She had met him two months back and their marriage was fixed. She was happy that she wouldn't have had to go through those profiles with baseless information about a person. She was happy that all the people who were more concerned about her marriage than their own kids' life will have to find a new scapegoat. Yes, she was happy about these reasons. The day had arrived and she was getting married to this man and all the happiness tend to fade away. Things did take place as planned with perfection, the wedding was the talk of the town. What mattered was the wedding to all and not the marriage, and she somehow felt that all had fallen apart. She ignored it all & went ahead to start her new life.
Unfortunately the heart was not wrong, the brain was stupid, the brain forced her to think all was OK when her heart knew that nothing was right. Today she thinks why she didn't listen to her heart, why she didn't say a no that day, she was afraid like anyone else and wanted to have faith, this was her only fault. She thought listening to others helps but what she forgot what she has to face is her life her ordeal and it will never be the same like someone else. Today she just wishes if she could just go back in time and can say a "no".
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