Today I felt that I should write and so I did start writing. This is probably the 6th or 7th time I have deleted everything& started again. I still don't know whether this one would make any sense either or it would also be one of the deleted never read versions of what I feel or what I want to write. For the past few days my brain has been playing games with me. Let's say it tells me to talk to someone and within the next two minutes it would just refuse to take the conversation ahead, well it is totally non-sense behaviour and cannot be accepted but how do I fight my own damn brain. Or maybe say lets go for a walk and by the time I reached the ground floor with my damn slow lift, fuuuussss the idea already vanished. Are you serious why in the first place did you think that you will just make me do the work till this point even. I don't know how many of you have faced it but trust me it is not an easy job to handle the brain which doesn't listen to you. The write and delete phenomenon is also one of the gifts.
Yeah mostly you will see me coming across as an arrogant bitch when you meet me, because my brain refuses to process that there is a part of me which can be just nice & simple. But we don't like simple, we just love complications. If I am awkward when I talk to you after a long time or worse meet you, my brain wears the sunglasses and goes on vacation. Ask my friend how difficult it is to follow what I say sometimes because now we decided to be over active and pull all the possible information regarding world war to world peace and throw it at once. You not only listen but follow and reply to the current question because you already missed the chance of talking about the last topic I was talking about. I ask to stop, it will look like a show off.. then the tough choice is given to me by my brain, decide whether you want me to work or not. I ask once more is there no better way out where we open our mouths only when needed and still act smart. The deal's off... no more discussions.
Note: Today the brain already decided to put a full stop here... you don't try playing games with me it said. I understand totally if you hate this post because I can hate it myself.
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